I’m always feeling guilty when I don’t get stuff done. So I make lists and use organizers and prioritize and so forth. I still feel guilty when I’m “doing” but never in the present doing, but figuring out what I’m doing next.

My good friend said she “aimlessly wanders”, that that is what she has realized she is supposed to do, and things get done, and she does not feel guilt.

The light bulb went off in my head. Of course, that’s sort of 3rd step stuff. It sounds right. I realize I used to do that. So I’ve penciled in to my planner, a day of Aimlessly Wandering. I’m sorry, that’s the how I can start, by planning my aimlessly wandering. Acutally, it’s planned for today This is part of it.

I just learned that a patient of mine passed away. This does not happen regularly to me. I’m a dental hygienist. Bruce did not show up for his appointment today. I was surprised. He usually is extremely punctual and always complained if I was not on time. Truthfully, this guy could be be a pain in the neck. Very demanding, sometimes rude, just difficult to deal with. But a character. I think he had a difficult life and was doing the best he could. I’ll miss him. He liked jazz. He had a show on the local radio station. I wish him infinite jazz.